Archive for January, 2018

Let Your Red Flags Fly

“A gentleman at the bar would like to buy your next round,” the bartender tells me. She leans close and whispers, “The guy behind me in the black shirt.” I glance over…

Click here for the whole essay, published on Sivanaspirit.com!



I Was There

I was there

In the room

When you left


The vessel remained

But I knew

You were gone


My first home was in that body

But without you it was nothing more

Than an abandoned building


I didn’t know where you went

People kept asking if I felt your presence

“No,” I said angrily. “She’s dead.”

And my heart shut down


I went to the place they put you

That strange filing cabinet of discarded flesh had no trace of you

You always hated funerals

I should have known you wouldn’t hang around there


For a long time you were lost to me

My soul boarded itself up

“Closed for repairs” it said


I had looked everywhere

In churches and worship halls

In books and memories

But still you eluded me


I finally gave up

She’s gone for good

God isn’t real

That’s it


Then I started working on my heart

Chipped away at the concrete barriers I had built

Pried the wooden boards from the doors of my soul








Until finally

It opened again


And there you were

Had been all along

Waiting patiently

For me to come home

Holiday Detox

I don’t give a fuck how many holiday cookies you ate. Tell me about when you swallowed your pride and asked for help.

I couldn’t care less about how many times you went to the gym. How often did you go outside of your comfort zone to try something new?

The size of your gut doesn’t interest me in the slightest. Show me your guts by opening up and being vulnerable.

I don’t want to know what it says when you step on the scale. What does it say about you when you step into your power?

I could give a shit about how tight your ass is. How tightly do you hold a friend in need of comfort?

That thigh gap doesn’t interest me at all. What are you doing to close the gap between who you are inside and who you are around other people?

Please don’t go into the details of your new fad diet with me. Instead share the details of your dreams and how you’re going to accomplish them.

Forget those stretch marks on your skin. Show me how quickly you can stretch your outer layers and grow into a bigger and better person.

Instead of shedding the extra pounds, what if you lost the criticisms, judgments, and negative self-talk you picked up last year?

Don’t let the matter of which you are made determine how much you matter in this world.

Erin Marie Yoga



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